I received a forward text this morning of a man with a shirt that said "Ni***r please, it's a WHITE house". The text then proceeded to talk about how that man was the reason why intelligent people should vote and keep Barack Obama out of the White House.

I'm sorry, but that forward to me sounds pretty unintelligent. The color of a man or women's skin is NO indication of how capable they are to command and chief our country. Gender is NO indication of how capable someone is to command and chief our country.

For those of you who are voting based solely on the color of someone's skin, shame on you. For those of you who JUDGE based on the color of someone's skin, shame on you too. Do yourself a favor and get out into the real world. We need to embrace everyone as individuals not as colors.

Erase the race-ism... LOVE WINS!

I usually only used Live Journal to blog about my loneliness, or about the one guy I wanted to be with for an entire year. But now, I realize that when you get old, you get smart. You grow, you learn, you bloom. In this instance, I've outgrown him. I've become far more independent in the past four months than I could have ever imagined. With that independence I set my sight on my future, moving to a new city to get my career in motion. Meeting new people and starting a life after college. I don't have anymore time for the games I got caught up in. I don't have anymore time to be jealous. 12 months is far too long to wait for something that was never going to come in the first place. You will forever be one of my best friends... but nothing more.

Because the thought of you loving someone other than me kills.

I know I did it to you. And now I'm seeing how it feels. I can't imagine the feelings you're going through. Preparing yourself to lose someone for four months. I never had to do that.

And to know we'll never kiss again... doesn't make it any easier. The next time we see each other will probably be our last and that's just how life works. I should be excited for my new adventures, but instead I'm picturing you with her and I can't think straight.

She's cute, I approve. But you lied.

You're all the same, all the same, all the same

Blah

You find out you can't get what you want... so you try to find out what you CAN get instead.

Always looking for the next best thing and searching for all the answers in the world isn't a way of living life... it's a way of destroying it.

Enjoy today, for tomorrow may never come.

I finally cleaned my room
in a deep clearasil clean kind of way

I even cleaned under my bed *GASP* that's about the third time in my life I've ever cleaned under my bed. The real reason is because I lost a very special piece of jewelery and I thought if I cleaned up and down I would find it, but I didn't.

It was hands down my most favorite necklace ever and it held a very significant meaning and it's gone. BUT now my room is spotless (well almost I have to dust my dresser and desk then we're flying high)

I go home tomorrow after work for my cousin's wedding on Saturday which I'm very excited for. Scared though because now that he's married that means my sister is next then me (if we're going in order) which we're not so I'm freaking out about nothing.

I get to see Dan, it's been about a week and a half since I've seen him last. That's all I have to say about that.

And I guess that's all I have to say about anything. I think I'm going to go do some homework... take a nap then go to work and class.

AND THEN PACK FOR THE WEEKEND! :)

I know what it is.

Why you drive me up the wall yet at the same time make me smile.

The times I get pissy are A) the week before my flow and B) when we reach our 3 weeks apart and I hate you SO much... but then I get to see you and it all goes away and I'm happy again.

I spent all day Sunday (okay a good 8 hours) with Dan watching movies and snuggling on the couch. It was great... still not enough time though. SO I'm going to Chicago with him Saturday to go see a friend of his and hit up some bars down there. He made me one of those hand tied blankets for Valentine's day, the top part is green and it has golfers all over it and the back side is black... SO CUTE... even cuter is that he actually made it.

In other news that DOESN'T revolve a boy... my trip to Virginia got canceled due to weather... and I cried. BUT then I got over it and realized I got to spend an extra day with my family of which I missed SO much. AND we rescheduled for March 4th, something tells me that I kinda have the job but they are just making sure I'm not some nasty person... that's just my opinion.

My mom found out her dog has heart worms. Apparently it's not "too bad" but he's still getting sicker and sicker. They think he got it from the place she takes him grooming... so now it's $500 for the treatment and it could kill him. I know I know I know, she should have had the dog on the medicine as soon as she got him... she doesn't think that far ahead though. Like mother like daughter.

When your mind races a million miles an hour, it's hard to pick out the important things.

I've neglected a few things lately, because my mind has been focused on other things not so important.

Sometimes it's more "fun" to put away the important matters for a while in and live in a la la land. When when the la la land consumes you, it's time to break away and get down to business.

When we were little and we saw something in the store that we wanted, our father always said "well how does it feel to want"?

I want a few things SO badly right now, that the feeling of want inside me is going to drive me crazy. I think I need to pick only one and focus on it, and I know which one that is. But at the same time I don't want to let the other desires fade away, no matter how silly and unrealistic they seem.

I have a pile of things on my plate right now, a lot of which are just there waiting to be completed, others that will never be finished and that's not by choice.

Oh beach how I miss you, oh flip flops I hear you calling my name.

Lets break out of our funk what do you say?

I get so emotional during the first week of the month, and it drives me crazy.

But I guess it doesn't help when he gets an attitude and gets nasty to me, when I'm only trying to help.

Or whenever I try to give advice he compares me to his ex-girlfriend in a not complimenting way.

When I don't understand him, he raises his voice to make me understand... which only pisses me off.

We're learning each other and our relationship is growing, but it's still very difficult.


I'm going as far to say that he needs to adjust his attitude against me and see that I'm not out to get him like he may think, I'm out to help him.

Things were great until now.

We're back in the cycle of me wanting all and him wanting nothing.

When will I get it through my head that I deserve more than that?

Maybe when I actually have time to devote to someone other than myself.

My plate is full, but I'm not hungry at all.

I'm not what he wants and he knows it... that's why it's taking so long.

And then you go and pull crap like you did last night

and I fall even more in love with you.

Gah, I don't even think you know.